Ku ingin berlari....ke hujung pelangi.

I just finished watching Usagi Drop a film by the cool Matsuyama Kenichi and cute phenomenal Ashida Mana, though I need to get up early at 6 a.m to work...sigh~ I cried a bucket watching them, it really reminds me to my grandfather when ashida and her friends crying at grave of her friend's dead father. I really miss you atok.. But anyway, crying really a useful help for my stress, I've becoming more calm than before, I cannot keep searching my own flaws..and being too hard to myself. Japanese movies always about family and friendship. I love the way they express our difficult lives in a way understandable by person. Can I be careless and let the wind blow me wherever it goes...hmmm I started to feel sleepy....damn it! Its 4:34 in morning..

Cried my eyeballs out.

I am crying the whole night...worried what will become of my face tomorrow. Life is real hard at this time.. I know anything could be the reason tomorrow, but I am too stress I cannot hold it anymore. I do not want to think about it but it wont go away from my head... My heart's ripped and torn, maybe I can be stronger than I ever think.

Stressed.

Lots of bad thing happened to me at work.... I've been wondering if this is a sign for me to give up my current work. My heart telling me all the time that I am not suitable. This is not what I want to do. So what did i do here? For almost 2 years, I've stucked in the same place. Friends come and go but nothing change, I always back to same circle. I need to move on, I need to move on. That's it, I need to go...this time its for REAL!

In a future dreamland

Even future has been made into games, can we actually win our own future?
I just started watching this drama just because I happened to read the synopsis online. I have a kind like a disease which I lose interest to something if my friends had watch it or discover it before me, and I'll start to ignore it for a while. Sometimes i feel SUX, when the movie or the music is actually great! And WORSE when it is very very great!!

First mobile post!

I have deleted my previous account confidently without see it thoroughly duh! So, I have planned to made a blog titled 'the chronicles of a tudung girl' but  it sounds lame like my current blog's title..haha chronicles..hmm..so this blog will feature my struggle in life as I growing up as a noob, nerd and very unfashionable girl.